Chapter - 9
Hidden Story I :
On 17th of November,
I was totally praying
God nothing to happen bad, and I’ve called Deby to talk with her and make our
mind set such that nothing is going to happen today. We were talking about
yesterday’s incident and Deby was scolding Radha very badly. Mean while Deby got
a call from Manasa. I was on conference, but Manasa doesn’t know about me that I
was on conference. She spoke to Deby normally and she asked what has happened
yesterday between Ram and Deby.
After reaching to college, Ram was in front of my bus, Deby
came beside me and he was staring at us, as if we did something wrong with him.
He took his mobile out and was calling someone, it was none other than Manasa I
guess, he was scolding her like “I said you already to come early to college,
now I’m going to canteen come there directly”. We were not interested in
canteen so we went to class at regular time. Radha didn’t come to college on
that day and I remember it very well what has happened in canteen.
Ram
and Manasa went to canteen and sat just beside each other. Manasa started
telling to Ram that Deby has called her today morning and said her that “Ram doesn’t
deserve me, he is useless and she even said me not to talk to him”.
Ram got angry again, he
came to class and in interval he took Deby to canteen normally and he didn’t allow
me to join them as I was not his close friend that time. He said for a break up
with her without any reason he left her.
Deby came to class rushing
and I was quite surprise to see her face, she was trying to listen the class. I
was staring at her and noticed a sad face, but she was trying to hide her
feelings so that I shouldn’t notice it. In lunch break Ram stood up as
soon as bell rang, when lecturer left the class room he went to Manasa and
called her to company. I went to Deby and said “let’s go to canteen sis”. She
replied “Leave it bro, we are nothing to them”. I said “They are angry on us,
but it doesn’t mean that we should avoid them. They are our friends”.
Deby got up and stood near entrance of class, I too got my
bag and we both walked towards canteen, she said me “Ram said for a break up
today, I didn’t said anything and after that I came to class”. I was shocked
after hearing to it. She said “Bro, I’m unable to concentrate on anything, I’m
unable to forget him and feelings on him”. I said “Just leave it for now and
you can go for Love and all after studies”. Deby said “No bro, it’s not
possible now to forget it but I’ve to concentrate on my career too”. I said “okay
and leave the matter here itself. Just ignore them for some day and you will
feel better”.
After going to canteen, Ram was sitting beside Manasa and I took
a chair and place it for Deby to sit beside me. He was playing with Manasa’s
hair, pulling and making it narrow. Deby was looking at her lunch box and
having it. I was quiet surprise to see Manasa’s and Ram’s behaviour.
(My inner feeling : Manasa and Ram are like brothers
and sisters so they might be playing with Deby to make her jealous)
After lunch we went to class normally and it got repeated for
few weeks. After some months I’ve observed a rapid change in Ram’s and Manasa’s
mentality. They started ignoring Deby so much. They didn’t even invited Deby
when we three of us went for movies, Parks and Farm house.
Chapter - 8
Summary
of hidden story :
I
remember the date exactly, it was November 16th,2015. Deby and Ram were in
college premises and I was got stuck in Mathematics class. Manasa was in
seminar hall with her friend Radha.
Radha
is typically a good looking girl with an innocent face and she acts like a
child with everyone. She is a very good friend of Manasa and they hangout on
every weekends for shopping and movies when they were in schooling and
Intermediate. Both Radha and Manasa went to canteen from seminar hall for snacks
in the evening time.
After
my Maths class I went to the ground to meet Deby. I saw her, she was looking
worried and tensed. Ram was facing opposite to her and after I came beside
them, Ram started saying “Go take your friend with you, I don’t want to be with
her”. Deby said “You don’t need to tell
him”. I’ve asked Deby “What happed sister?”. Ram said “No need to ask her, I’m
here to tell you”; and he said “I was looking at a girl from here, Deby said me
not to look at her”. For this simple thing Ram got angry and he started
pointing out Deby.
(My
inner feeling : Obviously a girl never allows his man to gaze at other girls).
Then
Ram left to the canteen and joined with Manasa and Radha. I was with Deby, and I
was making her to forget and apologize, as Ram never accepts his mistake even if
it’s his own mistake. Deby said “No, Surya! I’m not going to apologize this
time”. I said “Ok! Leave it for now and let us have some soft drink to chill”
and we went to canteen. As Me and Deby entered into the canteen, Ram started
telling the whole story to Manasa and Radha. We tried to sit in their table but
Ram pulled chairs beside him and kept his and Manasa bags in it.
Deby
got angry and I said “okay Deby! Let we both take another table and sat beside
them. After having cool drink, I said to Ram “Don’t be like a child and solve
your own problem”. He got bad tempered and said “Just go away from us with your
friend and never show you r face to me”. I was in full of anger and I thought to
go and bash that fellow, but Deby said “Leave it bro! I don’t want such type of
people. So we left to home after that and Deby was saying to me “I’m sorry bro!
because of me, you and Ram are fighting”. I said “No need of sorry and all sis,
I don’t know why is he doing like this”.
Ram
called me around 8 O’clock and said “I just got a call from Radha, she said that
Deby called her and spoke very badly about me, she even said Radha to tell me
that I should not talk to Manasa”. I was shocked after listening to it and I said
“Why does she say it?” as I know much about Deby. He said “I don’t know and I don’t want you to
involve in it and please don’t dare to call me”. I said “Wait for 10 minutes, I’ll
call Deby and talk to her” . He said “No need, it’s all over” and cut the call
without asking me anything.
I’ve
called Deby and asked “Why did you tell to Radha like that?”. She replied “What
are you saying Surya?”. I said “why did you call Radha and said her to inform
Ram that he should not talk to Manasa and why did you scold him very badly?”.
Deby replied “Wtf? When did I call her?”. I asked “You didn’t call her?”. Deby
replied “No bruh! I was talking to mom from 1 hour and how can you expect that I’m
going to call Radha”. I said “Just now Ram called me and said that he got a
call from Radha and she said him that you called her and said all these wrong
info to him”. Deby said “What? But I didn’t even touch my mobile after talking
to you”. I said “It’s Radha, she is playing a drama and she might even called
Manasa and said wrong info to her”. Me and Deby got worried of this situation
and we were praying nothing to happen bad on next day.
Chapter - 7
A lovely ride:
On second day of
our vacations
I wasn’t sleep
last night as many thoughts crept in for so many hours thinking of Manasa and
the time I spent with her when we were together. I still remember what she said
me, I thought to gather all the words she said to me and I wanted to write a story
on it but I think I’m not so good at creating a novel or familiar kind of.
I woke up in the morning
and started my day with our lovable dog, playing with it and then later I had
my coffee. When I was going for bath I got a call from Deby. She said “Surya listen!” . I was quite surprised
with the way she said and I replied “Yeah!
What happened?”; she said “last
night Manasa called me and Ram was on the conference call, she asked me about
what am I feeling towards Ram”, I replied “Why is she asking about your feelings towards Ram?”. Deby said “I too don’t know but one thing is
true, Ram felt bad about yesterday’s incident so he talked to me last night
till 2 o’clock, it was lovely and he was cracking jokes and made my day good”.
I said to Deby “I don’t know about Ram
but I’m not going to involve in any of their matters and I’ll be ther at your
home by 9 o’clock”. Then Deby said “Wait!
Ram and Manasa are coming to my home today and he is going to call you too, we
have planned for going for a movie and later for a ride on bike that too only
me with Ram”.
I was
surprised of what Deby said, but I was like okay I’ll come for your sake.
Then after going to Deby’s house, I saw Ram
on his bike and Manasa on her scooty. Deby got onto Ram’s bike and I’ve to
get onto Manasa’s scooty. We started heading towards nearest theatre and went
in, got tickets and sat. Seating arrangement went on like as I expected. Ram
sat in between Manasa and Deby, I’ve to sit beside Deby only as I prefer not to
engage anymore with Manasa. While watching move I was completely towards Manasa
only. She was laughing a lot wait pretty face and her eyes were sparkling due
to light effects in movie. She was enjoying the movie like a kid and I’m here
seeing her as I didn’t come to watch movie. Meanwhile Ram was completely
talking to Deby and she was looking at me with a questioned face saying “What is happening today? Why these both
are like this suddenly?”.
I just smiled and left to washroom. Later I saw
Manasa came out of movie and I just saw her face. After she came out of
washroom her face was dull and she came to me by saying “I’m sorry Surya. I didn’t meant anything for what I did, but I wanted
you to understand me that I can’t love you. I decided to marry my first love
and he is going to come back for me”. I was like “WTF? You still believe that he is going to come back?”. She
replied “May be no. But I’ve to
concentrate on my career”. I said “You
can concentrate anytime even if you love me too”. She said “But love destroys my goals, it destroys my
attention towards my destiny”. Then I
asked “Then why did you accept me first?”.
She replied “because I felt same toward
you then but later I realized it’s just attraction towards you”. I replied “Nice, then leave me why are you talking to
me?”.
She said “I saw tears in your
eyes yesterday, I felt so bad because of me only everything happened”. I
said “No, I was the one who expected lot
more about you, but it’s okay I do get hurt every time”. She said “Why don’t you understand Surya, I don’t want
all these again”. I said “Then leave
me, don’t trouble me”. She said “I can’t
do that, because I really love you, I don’t want to lose you that’s why I was
convincing myself that I’m not correct for you”.
I was quiet surprised of
what she said and tears rolled out of my eyes. I don’t know what to do. Ram and
Deby too came out and Deby was smiling at me and said “This is what yesterday
we talked in conference call”. I’ve asked Deby “Do I’ve to believe this now?”. Deby said “Believe in your thoughts and heart”.
Chapter - 6
A movie day:
After our successful completion
of college and its summer vacations, last day of college was too boring with no
friends in college as everyone was busy in planning for their vacations. Me and
Ram decided to go for internship while Deby was busy in roaming all over the
country and Manasa went off to her native place somewhere in Kolkata.
On first day of our vacation I
called Ram and said “Why don’t we go to
a movie today?” He replied “Yeah
lets go, come to my home in an hour we can go from here itself”. I replied “Okay, I’ll be there in 40min” . After
I went to Ram’s home, I was so surprised to see Deby and Manasa in his home. I’ve
asked him “what is happening here?”.
He said “We wanted to give you a
surprise so we lied to you that we are busy in vacations”. I said “Oh!”
(What is the need to lie for me I thought it in my mind ).
After starting from his home in
my car, Manasa started saying “Ram it’s
so boring here please do something or other”. Deby was quiet as she sat
beside me in front seat , we both started looking at Manasa’s behaviour towards
Ram from mirror. Deby got angry on Manasa as she is being so close to Ram and
gazed at me as if she is gonna kill her if I handover a gun. I just smiled at
her and said “take it lite”. Manasa
started her overacting, and Ram too. He started holding of her hand and playing
while Deby was busy in looking at them and I was driving. After reaching to the
theatre, Deby got down first and shut the car door with full of anger. I was not
in a mood for watching movie so I said them to go and I’m going out. Deby was a
bit confused to watch movie with them or to come with me.
Ram got tickets and
stood in front of me. I said ok you people enjoy and I’ll be back after the
show. They started moving towards entrance and suddenly Manasa gave a weird
look at me. Ram was busy in thinking what is my next step and Deby too saw me
and started running towards me. In the last minute Deby said she wants to join me,
for outing as movie will be so boring to sit in one same place for hours and I said
“Yeah! It’s okay you can join me”. Ram
got burnt that we both left him and came out but to be frank “Me and Deby didn’t like behaviour of Ram
and Manasa”.
If they like each other they
should at least tell us that they want to alone or to be together but they aren’t
telling anything and started drama in front of us. After starting from there we
drove to a park, where I explained to Deby that “I’m trying to forget Manasa and now-a-days I’m not liking Ram’s
behaviour too so I’m thinking to be alone at home and do my works”. Even
Deby said the same to me and she will not talk to Manasa anymore. We both had
our lunch and we felt relief after talking to eachother.
After some time we went to
theatre, Ram and Manasa came out with blank faces. I’ve dropped them at home
and reached home. No conversations went on further while returning except “bye”.
After reaching home I got a
call from Manasa, I’ve blocked her number
as I’ve decided not to lift her calls. She called me four time and I didn’t
call back. I’ve informed to Deby that Manasa called me and I’m not interested
in talking to her. Later I got a call from Ram, I lifted it and after that I heard
Mansan’s voice, it was a conference call. She said “I don’t know what happened to you but why don’t you talk to me
directly about what you’re feeling”. I said “What? And what are you talking about my feelings?”. She said “Why do you get angry and why you both went
outside leaving us in theatre”. I replied “You ask yourself the question and say me the answer”, I got
annoyed with her way of questioning and cut the call. Manasa called me again
and it was blocked again. So I called back and said “Don’t call me back and I’m not going to talk to you anymore, I don’t want
to get hurt anymore”.
She said “What is happening to you?”. I said “May be jealous or whatever but I’m not liking your behaviour”. She
replied “For what?”. I said “On some day you said I love you to someone
and some other day you started being close to other person, You left me as I’m
not correct to you and you’re playing with so many boys lives”. She replied
“No Surya, I said you already that
everyone is my friend and I’m not like others to love everyone, I still love my
first love that’s why I left you”.
I said “then why did you accept me?, you
would have rejected me on that day itself ”. She said nothing and cut the
call. I’ve so many questions in my mind
and I’m not even sure of what am I dealing with. Deby was so upset on other
side too. So I’ve called Deby to meet her. She said “Okay will meet tomorrow and let’s make atleast tomorrow a good
day”. I said okay and the day ended with a question mark on face.Chapter - 5
The untold story:
Manasa, one of the high class family girl who was
born and got up in Kolkata (Calcutta). She did her schooling in Kolkata and
intermediate in Bangalore. Her journey was good throughout her life in Kolkata
but with some disturbances in her life ambitions. She left her parents and went
to study intermediate in Bangalore, which made her life filled with guilt.
Manasa was a merit student in SSC, so she thought to
study more and get higher positions in life. She joined in St. Ann’s Junior
college for her Intermediate. As it’s a new life without any guardians there,
she has joined in Girls hostel with large amount as it’s a developed city.
She started going to college regularly for few weeks
and she really started enjoying her single life with college friends and
roommates. As hostels are set up to freedom of life, she started going out on
weekends with friends which took so many changes in her behaviour and attitude.
On a specific weekend she met him, a guy who was
completely drunk and driving bike, took a lane in which she was returning her
hostel room in night when there was no light in street, a dog was in middle of
street and the guy had to apply break on his bike to save it from over ridden
rashly and fell in front of her. She was still in suspense without taking few
moments she moved on from that shock and made that guy to with stand. It was
Rahul, who is her schoolmate and he came to Bangalore for further studies and
his family got settled in the same city too. She was still in surprise to see
him (actually she likes him a lot), he said “Let we meet on some other day, can
you give me your mobile number please?” in a polite way. She gave her number to
him and left to her hostel.
She started thinking about him and somehow it was
like a miracle to her as she met one of her old friend in an unknown city, that
too in a mischief way. She started feeling some different kind of stuff. The
next day, Rahul started his gameplay and stood in front of her hostel day and
night to get her attention towards him.
On a particular day, she dared to ask him “Can we go
through the city for a glance?.” He took advantage of it and said “Anything for
you babe”. It was Saturday night and she came out from hostel at 5 O’clock in
the evening with Maroon colour chudiddar,white leggings with matching ear rings
and bangles. He was waiting outside on his bullet bike in the corner of the
street. She was jumping and walking towards him, heart filled with childish
behaviour and some sparks in her eyes. He took her throughout half of the city
till late night and waited for dinner in a restaurant cum bar. Later while
returning to hostel it was already late so, he invited her to his home.
Manasa is actually an open minded girl, so she
accepted him and went to his home. She met his parents and she loved his
behaviour as he was so naughty at home, he made her to meet his sisters. All of
them enjoyed that night having supper with their new guest, singing songs,
dancing and later in the morning she realized that she wasn’t in her room. She
woke up from bed, started figuring out what has happened to her last night, the
after thinking for a longer time, she got to know that Rahul made her to drink
many pegs of Vodka in that bar last night.
Immediately she came out of home without informing them, took an auto
and reached her hostel. She was feeling sick on that day, she made herself firm
and took an appointment to meet a doctor there with help of her friend. As she
was unable to withstand on her own legs, she called Rahul for help to consult
the doctor. After the check up the doctor informed it’s due to over consumption
of alcohol, and it’s better to neglect it for some days. While returning to
hostel, Rahul took her to national park there to make her feel better and it
was the time to open up himself and his feelings on her. He said her that “Manasa,
you’re so beautiful be heart, your childish like behaviour makes me feel like a
kid, I dance like an idiot if you ask me to dance with you, I feel like I’m
unknown without you, I feel like you’re one and only for me for the rest of my
life”. She was looking at him with stunning effects and said “I love you Rahul”
even before he said to her.
Then she stared explaining to him, “Rahul, you’re
kind, generous and mainly you know how to respect girls. You’re the type of guy
I wanted to be with, but I don’t know what I am talking to you”. He stated
talking to her with utmost care and said “As we both are feeling same towards
each other, let’s date and think of future things later.
They both started their new way of life, loving each
other, caring for no reasons, thinking of stupid things and Rahul convinced
both side of parents for marriage proposal.
One year passed after they took relationship, they
both started fighting about one particular girl named Shravys. Manasa came out
of her hostel room while Rahul was in front of a shop talking on phone. She
yelled at Rahul saying “Whose number is this? Who the hell is she?” throwing a
piece of mobile payment bill of his which he gave to Manasa to pay off his bill.
He explained to her briefly saying “She is my classmate, she has crush on me, I
do like her so, and I do regularly talk to her when she calls me.” Manasa didn’t
believe his words this time and made him to call her. Rahul called her from his
personal number, Manasa took charge of that phone and turned on speaker in it,
a girl picked up the phone with one ring and heard the voice saying “Baby, mah
darling! Where are you? Missing you a lot!”
Manasa got to know that she was being used by Rahul
for his necessary things and he is not the one who fits to her. Even though
they both were in too close relationship, she decided to keep all the feelings
in herself and said him to marry her only after he changes his attitude. Rahul
loves both the girls, he loved Manasa first and later after 2 months he liked Shravys. He is still in confusion to decide for future, but one thing is Manasa
and Rahul were too close with each other, his touch made Manasa feel more
toward him, he grabbed her attention; she used to be so mad at him. But Rahul
was not enough mature to think in this way, he said Manasa for breakup and went
on with Shravys.
Chapter - 4
4. Edge Of a Mountain :
I came home around 11:40
PM and asusual parents were unsatisfied with my behaviour but they didn't question
me . I went straight to my room and went online in social networks.
I was so happy to announce myself that I got
a girlfriend and I can proudly call her my girl. But at some point I got a
doubt that "Will my parents agree
to my decision?", but somehow I got a positive feeling that they will
agree for it; From that day Me and Manasa started going out and meeting
casually. As I like Blue colour much, she preferred wearing , dresses which are in
blue.
I look at her, with eyes open
and enlarged and listen to her sweetest voice and cutest face with some pimples
on right cheek and forehead. I've even observed that she got a mole on her chin
but a little bit small one.
One fine Tuesday,
Deby didn't attend the college, whereas Me, Ram and Manasa attended college. Ram got
his new mobile so he clicked few selfies
of his, mine and Manasa sitting next to each other in the garden; I felt like
it's the only best picture in my life; I'm not photogenic person actually, but
beside her, I was looking good. I felt like we are the best couple of this
world. After the college asusually , I reached home and I was waiting for Manasa's calls and messages. She
didn't reply for my messages and she didn't even lift my calls which I dialled
hundreds of times. Around 3 o'clock in
the morning, I got a message from her, saying that "Sorry Surya, I don't know
what am I saying but I'm completely lost and I don't want to be with you".
The things change, reasons are unknown, Manasa already left her boyfriend, I
loved her, I was never of this type before, she is broad minded and she said me
directly not to have much hopes on her
and about future suddenly.
I made many queries to her, but she said she isn't happy with me.
My inner feeling was "I loved her so truly but she doesn't deserve it;
anyhow I shouldn’t show my love and care on her anymore". Meanwhile Ram
involved in this matter and he took me away from her saying "Manasa
is not a good girl, I already knew her but you didn't listen to me, she is a
f*c*e*r". I got on my nerves
listening to Ram's words and I
gave him a hard kick on his butt. He said "Thank you for this gift"
smiling. I was on bad temper but his words made me feel like he still cares me
as a friend and was helping me to forget. I could feel my heart aching, but still I wasn’t able
to convince myself that she left me without any reason.
I still love her but couldn’t express it to her right now.
Anyhow I
decided to leave this topic as ,I wanted to concentrate on my studies, but I
know that I couldn’t convince myself to study as my mind is always filled with
her thoughts. I couldn’t forget her, I couldn’t understand ,why she decided to be away from
me. But one thing was sure my parents want to see me succeeding in studies with
cent marks so I decided to study well.
Meanwhile End Examinations were nearing , I was not able to concentrate on studies but tried my
level best to prepare for exams atleast to pass in the subjects with 40% of
marks. While exams were on Ram too
brokeup with Deby ,saying that he wouldn’t
be happy with her in future as they both
got disturbed from many circumstances like “Some
other loved her but she chose Ram as best, Ram faced so many problems to remove
that person from her life, She was chosen as Ms.Fresher, it was so good but
Seniors are behind her even though Ram managed to keep them away and give her
his attention.” On the other side
Ram stopped talking with me, and Deby was busy with her worst days. She was
ignored by Ram and Manasa. Manasa was the main reason as she use to be so
jovial with Ram and Deby got angry with her over actions and asked Ram to be
away from her. Manasa was so happy as she left me and trying to be happy of “Being
Single-Celebration of life”. Ram was too curious to attend exams and
write. I didn’t perform well in exams and at the end and I was not at all happy
with my life.
Deby was the only one who took care of me when I was going through
those sleepless nights, She use to call
me regularly and kept me updated with studies and all other works to make me
feel good and to avoid thinking about Manasa as she got to know the feeling of being
ALONE.
I was dying so hard from inside to question Manasa “Why did she accept me and then
suddenly leave me in 8 days of time?”.
I saw Ram being too close to Manasa to
make Deby feel jealous, but even thought she left her concentration and I use
to sit calm without bothering their words. Surprisingly I heard one of the
cutest words saying “I Love You” on
a call, its none other than Manasa to the one on other side of the call line.
Chapter - 3
3. Depth
underneath an ocean :
On the same night, after that conversation
on a call with Ram, I felt it strange that ,for such a reason they felt it as
some magic word called Love. I questioned
myself "Is it really love? How did they
notice it?. Did Manasa also
love her boyfriend in this way? Does this small word have such powerful
meaning? Why am I thinking about Manasa now?"
Why did i start
thinking about Manasa ,when the point was around love?.
I was thinking
deeply and remembering her face in mind, and started falling asleep
slowly. The next day as
usual, I woke up and went for jogging, even then I was unable to stay feel peaceful, as
again I started thinking about Manasa in depth , I was worried about my future. For almost 30min I
started asking myself "Why am I thinking of her? Is it attraction or
love or liking? Then I started feeling guilt and thought of my parents and
their struggles". I went to home and got freshed up. This got repeated
for almost a month. After, nearly 1
month, I stopped thinking about Manasa.
I woke up
late and got freshed up, as usual. Mom
made my favourite
Dosa and I had them
peacefully. I thanked God for such amazing food and this life and then went to
college. We four people met in canteen and I was staring at Ram and about his
feelings ,what he told me, a month back. Ram and Deby got so close that they
started bunking classes and were sitting in canteen. Manasa also got busy with
her boyfriend on calls. These three people started planning out and I'm the
only one who is single. But I do, mostly spent time in home only by browsing
internet for cool apps, developing apps, singing songs, and playing guitar.
Then came, the mid holidays for 1st semester. It was for 1 month, some of my classmates
migrated from their hostels, while others went to their home as a part of home
sick holidays.
I can't go
anywhere as I'm local. I started using social networks day and night, sticking
to internet almost 14 hours a day, while remaining 10 hours to sleep and eat. I
started chatting with Manasa on Twitter and Facebook. She doesn’t come online
as much as she can but don't know, she came online for 4-6days regularly. I
started doubting if everything was fine and asked her "Is everything going
fine?". She replied "Yea!
a kind of". I said "What
does that mean?". She replied
"Hope you know about girls very well?". I said "I'm a kidoo I don't know
anything". She said "Rahul said that he doesn't
like me now, and since we aren't happy together, currently we decided to stay
away from each other". I was like wondering, they both were in love
from 2yrs, and they should have been close together and understood very well,
but she said she isn't happy with him. I said to myself "Holy shit! These people
will never change, if she wanted to leave him, why did she love him? Ok, she
did, but why didn't she think of it before only" but I didn't tell her all these as it
might sound, a little old .
I said "Oh! Ok do what your heart
tells". She started sharing about all her matters with me, she also
told about ,that “Rahul got
another girl, he is in love with her and he started ignoring me, I don't think I'm beautiful but why is
he in need of another girl?". I
said "you're
beautiful, but by heart ,any real men doesn’t care about face, beauty, He wants a girl
who loves him unconditionally and love is not all about face, beauty, body and all... Its all about caring,
sharing and mainly understanding". I started talking about her positive attitude, we both
started pairing up in friendship and I felt good that I got a good Friend. Now,
Manasa and Rahul planned for break up and Ram also was , aware about it as he is a regular customer of
Manasa's calls.
She shares
everything with him, about her life and incidents. Ram tried a lot, convincing
her about love, he also put a thought to adjust with him. But I'm a type of
practical, so I told her before, that "If
you want to hold a knife tighter, it cuts your hands deeper", so do
what you feel, never listen to others. I gave her some confidence and hope
levels that she can achieve greater things if she determines and she can build
her career. On a fine day, since it
was a holiday ,we all planned for outing to
some park, Ram informed me via call and said to meet him in outskirts of
city.
He also quoted "We both will be in the park
by 9 o'clock and you people come in time". It was a message that Ram
and Deby are going together. Immediately I rang up to Manasa and informed, she
said that she has some work with Rahul outside. She sounded like she was in
trouble, anyhow I got ready and for the last time I called Manasa, she didn't
answer my call. I got some type of strange feeling that something was wrong with
her and went to her home.
I knocked the
door, no one replied. I rang the bell for almost 10-15 min, and thought to
leave the place, I turned back towards my bike. Then I heard the sound of doors
opening and turned back, it was Manasa. I saw her eyes somewhat red, with dark circles below as if she didn't sleep for almost 4-5
days. I've asked her "what happened?, why are you so dull?; come on now
get freshed up, let’s go to
park. She said "No! I
can't come". I asked
her, "Is your health
okay? ." She said "Yeah! I'm all ok, I just need
some time to make myself easy and peaceful and she started walking towards kitchen.
She asked "You want coffee?". I
told "No need!" by showing my anger.
She was in
kitchen and her mom had left for office. She was preparing her breakfast with
tears rolling. I went to her and asked "What
happened Manasa? Why are you crying? Why didn't you answer my calls?". She
told "Sorry, I didn't hear it". I couldn’t wait and said her "For God sake please tell
me why are you crying?". She
started crying more hard and hugged me suddenly. I too wrapped my arms around,
tapping her shoulders and said "What
happened to our cute little doll, I never saw her crying before?". She
replied "Rahul told
about breakup to his parents, I too informed about it to mom".
Then mom said "Go to
hell! You kids never listen to parents and always take some wrong steps and
blah blah blah..!!". She continued saying , “Mom didn't wake me up, she didn't prepare my breakfast and she didn't even talk
to me from the time I woke up ". I told her, "Its ok Manasa it happens,
they are your parents and they will scold you for the wrong decisions and for
anything wrong".
Then she
questioned me "So loving
someone is a wrong decision?". I said "Na, its actually a crime" in a sarcastic way. She started
smiling and I asked her to get ready for outing. She took almost 1hr to get ready,
I was sitting on sofa in hall and started playing games in her laptop. She came
out with "Blue top with
net shaded hands, black leggings, blue ear rings and red coloured wrist watch”. She looked gorgeous in her special
dress. We started heading towards the park, we reached there by 10:30am. By the
time we reached Ram and Deby were already in the garden, they started
commenting on us, as we were late.
Ram started
asking Manasa reasons behind it, I told him, "Leave
it Ram, will catch them later", cause if she starts explaining it,
again she will cry and we would end up this day thinking about her condition.
First we went for rides like, jumbo wheel, Car dashing etc, and at last
swimming. We managed to have dinner in a nearby restaurant, we moved towards
our homes. Mom and Dad asked me to reach home safe before it’s late. As we live
in a city, here traffic reaches the peaks, so it was a hint for me that I would
reach home only by 11 o'clock. It was already 8pm, I started on bike with
Manasa. Ram and Deby started before us and I
guessed them to reach home early as Ram is a fast racer and he drives so fast
that its almost seems equal to a bike racer. I told Manasa "If you're not comfortable
tell me, we can go by cab".
She replied "Nothing like that I like to
go on bike". She sat on
bike and she placed her both hands on my shoulder for support. We started
heading towards her home, its 48kms far. We saw the beautiful city streets and
finally neared her home.
She asked me to stop at a junction and I parked my bike near some medical
store. I asked her "Why
did you ask me to stop?". She
said "If I go home with
you, mom will scold me, so better you leave me here and go". I said "How can I do that? And that
too at such late night". And I said ok I'll walk with you till your
home as a stranger. She said ok that's fine. She was in front of me walking and
I was walking slowly and watching her shadow, some idiotic people were standing a little far and she saw me, I
felt like ,it’s a sign to come closer; and I went beside her. She started
smiling and I told her “Don’t
worry, I’m here only”. She
pulled my right hand and grabbed it with her left hand, I didn't tell her
anything and I started walking too closer to her. A dog walked towards us
barking in the street, I told "GO
AWAY" to that dog, but
it didn't go. She said "Snoopy
go home! And the dog moved slowly ".
I laughed so hard
at that situation and we were near to her home. She started pulling her finger
from my hand and I felt like it’s gonna be sunset
for me, sun is leaving earth as its going to be darkness all over. I waved Good
bye to her and she said nothing to it. Suddenly
she ran back to me and hugged me so tight this time saying "Thank you for this awesome
day!". I stood like a statue and what I said next to it was like a
bunch of surprises, I said "I
love you Manasa" with
no fear of heights. I was blank and I didn't even wait for her reply. We both
left hands and hugs, She went to her home with a surprised expression and I
went towards my bike with a weepy face.
Chapter - 2
2. The lighted wish :
I was a little bit nervous
about how to introduce myself, as I wasn't so studious in my 12th standard and
I didn't score good grades in entrance test. Mrs. Joseph was gazing from the
corner of her eyes as I could see her golden framed spectacles slightly sliding
down. For an instances , I wondered that she actually looks like a heroine
in Hollywood movies even at the age of 40's. Everyone in the class started
moving their heads back to see, who is at the last bench, to be introducing
first. It seemed, a bit like all the deer's were in a group near a pond sipping
water, and suddenly notices a lion hunting for its meal. I then realized that I'm
still in a unexpressed expression about what to do, then suddenly Ram started
tapping my lap whispering "Come on buddy say it..!".
I answered him
with a serious tone "No, I don't know what to say!!". Then something
which I never expected happened, that’s all of sudden he pulled me to his place and immediately
he shifted to mine just to save me from
the situation before ma’am observes . Guess what unsurprisingly Mrs. Joseph
noticed us and uttered “Wt!! and continued quoting that “It’s just your
starting day and you people started sharing your troubles, that's so great. Good
friendship and are you both already friends before?".
By giving respect to
her words me and Ram stood, as it was well taught to us in school that when we
see any elder person talking to us we must stand to give them some respect. I
answered "No mam! We were not friends before, but we are now”. I was so
happy that he saved me from that situation, and he was trying to give some
attention to me. He started his introduction like "Hi friends, I'm Ram.
I did my schooling and intermediate in so and so and I've joined in Engineering
to become a successful entrepreneur". Then next it was my turn, I said
"Hello guys, I'm Surya. I did my schooling and intermediate in so and
so college(I don't want to share my properties publicly), I've joined in
Engineering to be a software developer".
All the students were waiting
as if they are in front a box office to collect their movie ticket. Everyone
introduced and finally left with only 2 girls.
One girl stood; I didn't look
her from when she started her introduction, but then the girl who began
introducing was taking so much time so I looked at her from corner of my eyes
but wide open. She had
a beautiful face with nice curves and edges, her hair was so long, straight, thick
and brown in colour at some parts. Her eyes were so big as of owl but very
pretty to look at them. I felt like swimming in her eyes although its an
imagination. Her lips were pink in colour. She wore pink top with blue leggings. She introduced
herself as "Hi! I'm Manasa. I did my schooling in Bangalore and
intermediate in Calcutta. I've joined in Engineering to opt for M.S in
Australia. I like designing, painting and also love to write novels ". She
was the only one who took 5 minutes to say about her in brief while all others took
atmost 1min and finished their intro half uttering. I was so impressed with her
words. She spoke in a friendly voice and her tone was exactly like a baby dog.
Lol! But actually her tone was exactly like a sparrow too which is chirps early
morning.
After her introduction I was a bit more surprised and my heart beat
went out of almost 200 bits per minute. It was Deby sitting next to her and I
was like "Yuppiee! I know her" and I whispered to Ram that I know
her, she and me both studied in same class in our intermediate. Ram said
"What that pink top girl?". I said "No Ram, not that pink top,
that girl next to her". He said "Oh! You mean Deby Sangam. I too know
her" as if he knew her from childhood. I was totally surprised by his way
of response. He spoke to me as if he was her boyfriend, I felt like that and
said to myself "Cool down Surya! He might be kidding", and next to
that he suddenly exclaimed "She is my girlfriend and we both are in touch
from our schooling, we talked to our parents too about our future and currently
we joined Engineering so that we can know much more about each other".
After hearing those words I
felt that "At the age of 14 , they proposed each other and at the age of
17 ,they are loving and I think at the age of 18, they are going to get married
as if they're going to die at 25". I felt pity on their decision but I
can't judge anyone; cause I was neither their parents nor their family. I'm
just a friend and I should help them to make decisions and I know at this age
it's common, people fall in love with everyone.
It was break time and
everyone started murmuring in class and many divided into gangs. As me and Ram
become friends we both went out for some fresh air and stood in corridor. Deby
came towards him and I was in confusion state either to abandon that place or
to be with him. I saw Manasa also coming with her so I felt like staying. Deby
started talking to him in a lovely manner and Manasa introduced herself to Ram and Deby said her "He is
Surya, we both are intermediate
classmates". Basically I'm not a type of guy who flirts with girls and I
feel shy to talk usually. Deby knows about me so she just said about me and in
next 2min as Deby,Ram and Manasa were engrossed in talking; I left that place
as I wasn’t comfortable. Ram didn't
react much as he was busy with his girlfriend, playing with her funk and
placing it in right position as it was breezing hard and trembling. They both
started holding hands and I was seeing them from other end but I was talking to
other new friends who were introducing themselves
During our lunch break we
all went to canteen to have lunch. As a part of engineering "Senior’s do
rag fresher’s until the fresher's party". We four took a table which was
next to the open door and everyone could see us. Ram and Deby were wondering
"how to be seated?", as they both wanted to sit ,next to each other but they looked
worried about Me and Manasa, thinking if we both will we be comfortable ,to sit
next to each other. I managed to sit in a single seat and Manasa sat opposite
to me. Deby and Ram sat next to each other and smiled at us. I gave a wink
expression to Ram saying I accept your privacy too.
Mean while when we were
having lunch some seniors spotted us, who bunked their classes and were looking
for freshers to have some fun. They came and sat beside us. They choose Manasa
first and Bio data. She asked her to narrate her CV in brief , and she managed
to repeat what she told in class; one
among the seniors asked about her hair style and why is it so straight and
puffy. She gave a look like "Why the fuck ,do you want to know about a girl's
hair?". A idiot guy asked her "Do you've a boyfriend?" as if she
say's no , and he would propose her. Manasa looks so cute. Her formal dressing sense and hairstyle
makes her look pretty. The expressions of her eyes and lip moments gives a
feeling of falling in love with her and whenever she sets her long pony tail in
position, it gave me a feeling as adorable. Manasa said "Yes I've a boyfriend named Rahul , who
is doing his B.Tech in nearby
college" without wasting a second. After that we abandoned from canteen to save her from
other seniors.
After all our classes we said good bye and sat in our bus.
After reaching home I narrated what all happened in college to my parents
and sister. I didn't tell about Manasa and Deby as my parents don’t like me talking
about girls. I was thinking deeply on "Does Manasa really have a
boyfriend? Or she lied to save herself from situation?" as most of the girls
like to save themselves from all these worthless situations. I was the only
one ,who was single in my group and was
excited to know about Manasa but as it was the first day of college I can't
call her; I didn't ask her number too.
I rang up Ram casually to talk about
class and faculty; with some courage I asked about his love story. "He
started saying its a long story, but yes its lovely to explain. We were friends
from school, I saw deby most attractive and she likes me too. It was children's
day and we all were taken to zoo park. Me and Deby were partners (in school
they make partners to take care of each other until they leave that visiting
spot). When we went near Lion’s place, it roared and it sounded more than a
thunder storm. She got frightened and hugged me so tight. My heart felt too warmth at the moment and something
sparkled . I called her on that night on Viber and proposed her. She doesn't
like all these but as it was me, she took almost 1 week to think and said
"Yes...I too love you."
Chapter - 1
New Entry To Life :
It was my first day to the college, I was so scared of
stepping into engineering as our seniors said “Once you join, you’re in a
trap”. They also said that that Engineering is like a pro circle which is a loop
and there will be so many bottom less pits in which we tend to fall and it's too difficult to bounce back to normal mode. Their talks also included about the factors like; Studies, Backlogs, Girls, Friends,
Love, Addiction etc., Anyhow my Dad wanted to see me in Engineering as a fact
that all of his friend’s s/o's and D/o's were into this field. As I didn’t
score good grades in EAMCET (Entrance exam for Engineering) he put me in a middle class college under “Management Quota”.
My dad dropped me near the junction where college buses
usually stop and students board the buses. I was standing and waiting for
bus, a bus came in front of me and driver pointed his forefinger towards
college side, I nodded my head and got in. Then I was walking towards the last
seat, I saw one of my intermediate classmate named “Deby” sitting in 3rd
seat on left side. I never spoke to a girl directly excluding on social networks.
Anyhow she managed to wave her hand so as I too did the same with a fake smile on my face and
said “Hi! How are you?”. She said in a soft friendly voice “Hey! I’m fine.
Thank you”. I made my move to the 4th seat on right side and sat there, in a moment of silence. I was looking around to check did anyone noticed
that I talked to a girl. Then there was a blanket of silence which occupied entire space in the bus as it was the
first day to college and all of them looked nervous but showed up bright faces as if they were going to build so many shits after their Engineering. But since I was a practical, I didn't want cent marks, I want something called knowledge
and lessons of life throughout my life and I was looking for all these. My
father is like you must get at least 85% to get into a professional job.
If I’m
not wrong I don’t even know, why I had to study, as everyone goes to
college, I’m also used to it. We reached college and I got out of bus as a last
lazy and idiotic passenger, who slept off when bus was moving like a sea saw;
up’s and down’s due to abnormal road. I walked towards ground and sat on a
bench and continuously looked the entrance as many students were getting into college
as if they are like hungry sharks moving towards a ship to hold the neck of the
passenger. I managed to sit on wooden bench and saw Deby coming towards me as
if some barking dogs were behind her then I got to know that the dogs were our
seniors, and she came and sat beside me.
I acted as though, I didn’t even know
her, but she asked me “Which branch you’ve joined?”. I’m not at all interested
to give a reply and I was annoyed and I had no particular interest to respond her, as there were seniors in front of us. If they see interacting to her they would catch me and rag like anything, but with some hesitation I
managed to respond in a single sentence “ECE and you?”. She was surprised by
hearing it and said in a lunatic voice “Meeeee tooooo…!!”. Then I got a
feeling that someone whom I know, belong to same branch and I wished God “Please
God, I beg you please we both should have to be in same class”, and headed
towards our class rooms to find out which section we belongs to.
We both got
split while searching for our admission numbers where they pinned to display board's of each classroom. I didn’t find mine and went to the incharge to ask about mine. Then
he exclaimed “What you didn’t find yours?”, for a moment I heard it like “What
you dumbass, you can’t even see your number?” then he sounded like a bass
guitar and said “3rd floor, room number 3018,facing towards right.
Then I got into the lift but there was a note stuck in it “Save Electricity – Lift is
only for Faculties and Handicapped” and I said to myself that “Yes if any
faculty asks me I’ll say them that my leg is injured and do some actions as to show that I'm really injured.
Then
I’ve stepped into corridor of 3rd floor and saw 3018 labelled on the of door. I walked into the class and without seeing anyone in benches I've occupied last bench of the last
row without even looking at the people who were seated already. Then I slowly started looking around; there were 2 rows of
girls and another 2 rows of boys. Girls were sitting in first 2 rows and boys
in last 2.
I started staring at nearest boys and saw everyone, joining hands to create new bond called "Friendship". Ram who sat in first bench, a minute back creeped towards
me and sat beside me by introducing himself. Our Class teacher cum incharge
came into the class and started say about herself. “Hello students! I’m Mrs.Joseph
and I’m your English lecturer and class incharge from this day, if any of you is
facing an problem in dealing with the classes or subjects or any problem can
contact me anytime except around 12:45-1:30 as it’s a precious time and I’ve to
eat my lunch”. She sounded it in a sarcastic manner but I didn’t get her point
well. She use to be so sarcastic that even the word sarcastic lost its meaning and
finding sarcastic in all sarcastic situations.
Class started and
before that she said to introduce about ourselves. She even exclaimed “This time its not from first to last, but its gonna be from last to first and why always ladies first?”; Then
all the girls and boys shouted like crows and said “Yeah…..that’s true, Please
from last”.
There was my inner feeling and I wanted to shout “I am
the one who is sitting at last you bastards and bitches”.
Prologue
It was so painful deep in my heart as I had messed up my life. My
heart kept saying me why don't you call her and tell how much you love her. But
suddenly, it was almost 9 o'clock in the morning and I need to attend a class
by 10 o'clock. I remember that I was never a guy, who woke up so
late daily and who never felt emotional for anyone. But some things,
some people or some new aliens came into my life that I've changed a lot. I
remember when people use to say that they fell in love with each other, I use
to exclaim "Never say such shit to me!". I use to be so dedicated to
my studies and life. But I'm realizing how stupid I use to be. People think its love, when they get attached
to a opposite gender, but its not pure love its a word called INFATUATION.
I never thought that me and Manasa get into such type of
relationship as I use to be a type of who doesn't believe in love, and she is
of too practical. I still wonder why all this things happened to me. I still
ask God why did u made us to be like this, why did he wrote this type of fate
to the two never ending parallel lines which are just 180 degrees to each
other. One goes in its direction while other one goes opposite to the first
one, but both are equal and neither become perpendicular to each other nor
become an ending point.
Apart from all these only thing I wanted to say is that me
and Manu loved each other that we went out of thoughts so many times, asking
about our future, what after our studies and how to go with life living with
eachother. I guess I never proposed her directly as we both were too shy to say
about our feelings on each other.
Lets continue to the main story.
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